Hanging by the Moment
Title: Hanging by the Moment
Author: H.B. Pattskyn
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Rating: A List
Blurb: Pasha Batalov has lived his whole life doing what a good son is expected to do. He dropped out of school to help run the failing family restaurant, and ever since he’s put up with his difficult business partner, who also happens to be his father. And, of course, he keeps his sexual orientation a secret from his conservative Russian family. After being closeted costs him his first serious relationship, Pasha resigns himself to one-night stands and loneliness.
But after a chance encounter with lost delivery truck driver, Daniel Englewood, Pasha starts to question all of his assumptions about life. Daniel is sweet, funny, smart, drop-dead gorgeous—and for the last six years, he’s been living with HIV. Pasha worries that he won’t be strong enough to help Daniel if HIV turns to AIDS, but he can’t walk away from their deepening attraction. He also doesn’t know if he can be strong enough to face the hardest task that a relationship with Daniel demands: coming out to his family and friends, and risking losing everything else he holds dear.
Review: This is the kind of book that makes me want to be able to write the most amazing review, ever.
I felt drawn to Pash from the start, his unique ways, his family, his secrets, his fears. Everything was there, and he felt so human, not fictional at all. I fell in love with him from the very beginning, not in the dreamy sigh kind of love, but the real kind, the one that shows when you can relate to a character so easily.
Pasha’s story is one filled with family responsibilities and mandates. He must do this, or that. He must take on the family business. His life is no longer his, it is forever entwined with his father’s and the family business they run together.
Mr. Batalov, Pasha’s father is without a doubt one of the highlights of this book. He is a very strong male, always caring for his family, worrying about money. He ran a very patriarchal household, and was lost and stubborn. Without his wife, running a sinking business the old fashioned way and trying so very hard to understand why his son decided to turn gay. And like any other family of this sort, he blames himself, he asks what has he done wrong.
It is so compelling to see, his journey into acceptance. And because he is a good man, and he only wants the best for his son, he sees the effect Daniel has on Pasha and how even though it is not how he was told things should be, he opens up and embraces their relationship.
With Daniel, we get to see him from Pasha’s POV and all we see is this beautiful human being, who made a mistake once upon a time and is dealing or trying to deal with the consequences in the best possible way.
Their love builds slowly. Their relationship is about trust, earned and given. For Pasha something that seem so impossible as coming out to his father, comes so naturally when it is about sharing his life with Daniel. For Daniel, who was afraid of being rejected and becoming a burden, turning his way around and learning to lean on someone else, ask for help, and find acceptance. Take that second chance life is giving him and love Pasha, as if he was going to live forever.
Gosh, I cried… a lot. I could talk about this book for hours. I just want everyone to read it and experience it. This is one of those books that will stay with me for a long time.
“Tell me how you like to be kissed.”
“Slow. Soft. Gentle.”
Reviewed by Connie
Posted on December 6, 2013, in Connie and tagged a haunting past, A List, Acceptance, Beautiful, Choices, Coming Out, Connie, Consequences, Conservative, DSP, Expectations, Family, Family Business, Friends to Lovers, Friendship, Grief, Healing, HIV, Homophobia, Kisses, Loneliness, Love, M/M, Making a New Life, Mistakes, Native American, Restaurant, Russian, Trust. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.